My name is Amber. I am 41. And I was a victim of nearly 2 decades of domestic abuse. I am now a single, solo parent (of an amazing 6 year old) desperately trying to heal while navigating this thing we call life.
Abuse. It took me years to realize that was the most fitting term for what I had been living. I spent a long time feeling inadequate. Looking for the wrong kind of help. This included visits to multiple therapists in an attempt to gain the tools and knowledge to be a better wife. A better wife?!?
My soon to be ex husband was my abuser. I technically spent 18 years of my life married to a man that tore me down vebally, emotionally, and finally physically. After several unsuccessful attempts, 6 months ago, I left for good. This time there is no going back. There will be no reconciliation. I will not be swayed by the endless empty promises and suave manipulation tactics.
Living in abuse is like living in a drug induced fog. You are in a constant state of confussion and second guessing. I understand now that is the intent of the abuser.
This is my account of the events that led me from there to here. The good, the bad, and the ugly. My intent for this safe space is to tell my story in the hopes of helping others. Thanks for reading.
Keep moving towards the light,
Amber
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